Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

I just want to cry tonight. In fact, that is what I have been doing.

It's been a long few months with many ups and downs... I've had my share of health issues, relational complications, scary situations... Today, I have hit the wall. After some more health stuff as risen... I just feel like I want to scream.

I don't want to deal with this. I'm scared, and it's hard not to worry and trust that God is in control. I just want to curl up in bed and not do anything... Either that, or totally disregard everything my doctors or loved ones have told me and do something that the 'silly me' would do (such as go for a run to Sidney just to get some ice cream).

I don't like this. I don't feel like 'me' right now. I feel like I have no choice.

But enough of that. I was planning on writing a post on how frustrated I am, how tired of the chaos I am, but, then I stumbled across something...

I'm sure everyone has heard of fmylife.com... I enjoyed them for awhile, but I always found myself trying to 'one-up' the post-ers. I'd think to myself 'Oh, so you think your life sucks because of that, well try this ____'. That was not a good breeding ground for positive thoughts. Next, through some random link clicking, I found MyLifeIsAverage. I thought this site was the best... Highlights of 'normal days' from 'normal people'. They made me (and my sister) laugh. A lot. But, tonight, I think I found something even better...

After reading some posts on MLIA, I came across a link to another site... MyLifeIsG THIS is the site for me. As soon as I started reading it, my whole frame of mind changed. I had been planning a blog post to rant and say how much my life sucks, but, this site reminded me that I am so so blessed.

Sure, sometimes life gets me down (and I'm sure I'll be regretting posting this by tomorrow, when I'm exhausted after no sleep and complaining to anyone and everyone who reads text messages or signs onto chat), but I have some freaking amazing things in my life that are there whether life is rough or not.

Tonight was my first night providing art for the Place, and my piece received many compliments. I am finally coming to relize a few things about (my) art... A big one being that I have a talent for art. I know, I should've realized this awhile ago, but... I haven't. But I'm finally beginning to accept that I am a good artists... Thanks to everyone who has told me that over the years. It's finally started to sink in.

I'm blessed with a good mind. Seriously. I don't mean to brag, but, I do think I am a fairly smart person. And geeze, I live in an amazing part of the world, and I've received a great education that has helped form this brain! Even the things I hate (homework, tests, etc) I should be thankful for...

Finally (but this list is definitely not ALL of my blessings), I have a freaking sweet Family. And not just immediate family, but my friends, church community, school teachers...

My Life is Good.

May 8th, A good day

I had a really really really great afternoon.
This afternoon was the best part of my week.
So far, it's been the best part of May.
And the people who made it so awesome probably don't even know I loved it.

I was at the library this afternoon, and there was a small 'good-bye' party for Matt, even though he is working tomorrow and has a shift there on Tuesday... It was a 'Good-bye Matt and see you on Tuesday!' party.

ANYWAY, the librarians at Central were having a party (an excuse to eat cake/cookies/chocolate covered strawberres) and they invited me!
Not only did they invite me, but they talked to me!

Librarians and people who worked at the library made me feel right at home (which is suiting, as I spend almost as much time at the library as I do at home...) But, seriously, it was so AWESOME. Like, just being invited to come to their special little get-together, and then be acknowledged... Sounds like I'm really lame or something, but it was seriously the highlight of my week.

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I'm glad it happened. I'll stop sharing how AMAZING my afternoon was, because I'm sure all of you are jealous now. I just needed to tell someone how much I love the library and how awesome it, and the people there, are.

Oh, and did anyone notice the beautiful sunshine today? Definitely longboarded home from the library, which added to the awesomeness of the day. :]